Sometimes I am ok. Other days, I attempt making coffee in my CD player... Just trying to counteract my fog-filled choices. That is a daily battle. You've probably heard of grief fog. There is pain fog as well. It gets really messy - WHEN GRIEF AND PAIN COLLIDE. How to get anything done when I must save my energy to work around weather flares, be able to participate in social outings, and constantly regroup from yet another trigger? Just when I feel good enough to accomplish anything of considerable value, I cram my energies into that small window of time. Then pay-back begins, for every crime my body chose to commit against itself. The recovery is always longer than the event. "Oh, you wanted to get groceries today?" The cost for that will be: 12) Muscles knotting 11) Joints crying 10) Bones a creaking 9) Back a bending 8) Feet a twisting 7) Skin a crawling ...
When I was a very small, I saw my first ballet on television. I was entranced by the delightful music, graceful swaying, and delicate flying, it seemed. That must have been why I thought fairies were real. I was in awe of the beauty and surrealness of the scenery. I hoped silently that I could be able to dance like that someday. I was so excited when I saw my first pair of real ballet slippers. I fingered the lacy fringe of the pink tutu and dreamed it was mine. But my hopes were soon dashed. I should have known better to ask. My piano teacher's daughter was a ballet dancer and a tap dancer. I was already at her house, playing piano. I could have learned a few more things while I was there. But that is not the way we did things at our house. I should be ashamed to think of asking to wear such things and parade around half naked in front of people. We do not dance at our house. End of story. You can take a horse to water, but you can't make ...
Summer. Hot and humid. Sticky sweat dripping down your forehead in beads, glistening in the harsh afternoon sunlight, reminding you just how miserably thirsty you are every time you taste the salt collecting on your lips. Summer. Rainy or dry? Morning dawns another promise of cooling the air, only to be left with one more thunderstorm rolling across the prairie, leaving the rivers swollen with too many days of overactive weather, filling the farmers' crops with more acres of a washout than ample bushels of grain. The local coffee shop buzzes with complaints of flooded basements and unpassable dirt roads from trenches cutting deeper and deeper, making everyone wonder if a drought would be welcome soon. Summer. Lazy and crazy. Every teacher's hard work and effort takes a tumble into the barren lands of fuzzy memory loss. Every schoolboy and girls' favorite time of year, no homework drudgery, no cranky teacher adding one more assignment to the list for the weekend,...
Comments
Post a Comment